"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly." ~Richard Bach

Those of us who are lucky experience the complete unraveling of our lives. A life turned upside down creates the opportunity for radical change. Whether it's a divorce, death of a loved one, sudden poverty, or life changing illness, we may find ourselves forced to reevaluate identity, meaning, reality.

Corneal dystrophy has been the empowering experience of my life. I lost access to visual beauty, but discovered that we swim in a sea of unnoticed yet exquisitely beautiful sounds, textures, smells, and motion. The disease was crushingly cruel and my organ donor gave me the purest form of unconditional kindness. I lost the illusion of control, and tasted serenity and freedom. I gave up the future I had planned, and experienced the richness of the present moment.

Life became an infinite playground- with a little help from Lao Tsu.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Staying With the Present

What propels us out of the present? We are like children who don’t want to hear what Mom is saying. We look at everything else in the room except her face. Driven by our fear of inadequacy, our desire for the future, our guilt and frustration with the past, we welcome any distraction from the reality of now. To look peacefully into the face of the present moment requires acceptance. It requires acceptance of ourselves, acceptance of reality as it is in this moment, acceptance of the love and life available to us.


Setting time aside each day to focus on the now gives us the opportunity and practice that enables us to discover how rich and nurturing the present moment is. Initially we find that it is much easier to remain in the immediate moment when it is pleasant. It is easier to look our mother in the eye when things are cozy and warm. It is much more difficult to stay focused on the face of the present moment when she is stormy or we are frustrated. With a daily meditation practice, we discover that we can resist the temptation to look away. Eventually we discover that even when reality is exceedingly harsh, we can see and appreciate the kindness and beauty that also exists in the present.

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